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Azurry's journal

April, 9, 2025

I thought I'll write a bit of a vent here and that I think I need to start using my website more. Besides my issues with cyberstalking (Sadly, most people don't take this seriously) It has been stressing me out for some months, and unfortunately my report about it got taken down on my Deviantart so I will have to post it on here most likely instead. I read that I am indeed allowed to report cyberstalking on Neocities. I want people to stay safe and I won't back down on safety. What this person did was a crime. Cyberstalking me for ten years is insane. I will finish my report as soon as possible, I just need sometime to calm down. I've been having some issues on Bluesky with the art community. An artist that goes by the name Cotronis on Bluesky has added me to a moderation list on Bluesky called AI goobers just because I wasn't yelling at a tech bro. I do not have the energy to yell at someone for abusing AI. Let alone the time. This person must be well off and it sucks to keep encountering people like this online. I'm so exhausted.

I see why most people have been keeping to themselves online. It doesn't feel safe or that fun lately online. Back in the day it used to be fun, but now, I just don't know anymore. From the abuse of moderation lists I've been dealing with for months to an exfriend cyberstalking me because I cut them off ten years ago, and I can see why I cut them off. They were really bossy, controlling, and I can see an awful person. Saying crazy things like "I'm a red flag from start to finish." Just because I rightfully reported them for being toxic and just downright awful. I have all the screenshots backed up, as well as video footage (Before they deactivated the stalking accounts) and evidence. This isn't okay. It's been making me feel pretty unsafe on Bluesky and with how weird websites can be about this stuff there's not many places to report these things.

Bluesky is one of the few places where I can report this cyberstalking. I'm actually grateful to Bluesky since I wouldn't have known about the cyberstalking in the first place. Now that I'm aware of it, I've taken precautions to be safer online. With that said, I unforunately had to leave some stuff behind that was also stressful as well that I can no longer could manage anymore. I'm sorry that it felt personal, it really wasn't. From Discord servers to even games I enjoyed that I barely have time for. On top of taking care of family, my house, and work, I've been becoming too tired to deal with all this, it's pretty stressful. I've since then taken sometime to take care of my self and mental health because of how anxiety inducing this all is.

I'll for sure be taking some more time for myself, and I won't ever feel bad for taking care of myself. I gotta take care of my self before I take care of whatever this is that's going on. I just need sometime to enjoy my art again, play some games without stress or distractions. That being said, I appreciate those that listened to me in this whole ordeal. It means a lot to me. <3