November 11, 2024- August 5, 2025

He started this on Bluesky, that was originally on Twitter, but was started on Bluesky instead because me and Alwaysjmb moved there instead. So he decieded to target us there instead, which is creepy and weird. I'm not talking to no stalker and glad I never replied to that weird account of his. It was all a trap he set up to get back at people. Here's a list of all his Bluesky accounts that I know of, there is seven in total:

zoenaanae.bsky.social‬ (Another one of his call out pages that's filled with nonesense)

zonane.bsky.social (His hater stalker account)

goldarwintea.bsky.social (His stalker account that is now his gamer account)

rocruzhiyo.bsky.social‬ (Stalker account and so called "evidence" He has on me)

alfirune.bsky.social‬ (His main account)

alfirunes.bsky.social‬ (I think this one is deactivated)

aacicodts.bsky.social‬

I wanted this guy's life to improve because I've seen some of the worst people get better. It's rare, but it does happen. I've seen people worse off than him, so I really hope he does get better, but at the same time, I gotta keep myself safe online. This verbal abuse may not seem a big deal to some, but it is to me. For example if a person were to keep yelling at a plant daily, it would die. Not just from yelling alone, but still, it won't grow as much. That's a very real thing. A person's mental health can be shot if they have to deal with that all the time.

I think what bothers me the most is not just having to deal with all this, but the constant dealing with being called a coward to provoke me, and I did research on this word and it's basically just trash talk. He reminds me of Lowtiergod. An infamous gamer that a lot of people love to hate. I don't want him to end up like that, and LTG is a black man, so race doesn't really matter unless people are obviously being targeted that are unrelated to each other or not. But being targeted for being a woman of color and queer, and just because of my use of the growing heart emoji is creepy. A lot of people use that in cute fandoms, like Sanrio. It's not like the Tuffmallow community owns that... Cyberstalking is a huge issue, but yeah, LTG would do similar things. Cyberstalk people and cause a lot of issues in the fighting game community.

I then realized that I needed to use my own website and my toyhouse so he couldn't control me. He was trying to regain control. Even though I did have proof of the stalking, sadly with moderation lists misused so much, I needed a place where I could safely report this. This isn't right and this can't go on like it has been. He must be stopped. I don't want more people to get hurt and I'm afraid that other people won’t be as strong as I've been.

The autocorrect made a mess, so my comment is weird here, but basically I didn't want to lose my Deviantart account because my cyberstalking journal was taken down, unfortunately, mostly because of the screenshots, but also the fact that I got quite a bit heated. I called him a loser, self-absorbed, and a real jerk because that's how I felt at the time, and I still feel that way more so with being harassed on Bluesky so much. I mean, it's hard for me to be nice to someone when they just started being rude to me out of nowhere after ten years. LOL, that's some crazy shit. It's pretty bad, so I reported it, and for good reason, but with Bluesky being under moderated. I was like, "Fine, I'll do it myself." So I did.

I felt pretty guilt-tripped right here. It's like he is the only one that can talk about hearsay, but me and the other people he stalked and harassed can't. Which is pretty hypocritical. At least, I can prove the cyberstalking, harassment, and inhumane disrespect. I wouldn't have as much of an issue with him, if he didn't do all of this. Also, nothing adds up with what he is saying, it sounds like projecting/imaginging things. I was able to take a look at Tuffmallow's server and I didn't find anything wrong with it.

People didn't start being harsh with him until he started all this stalking. I feel like he was lurking over me too much for some years, but again, if he messaged me privately, I would have forgiven him, especially for back then, since it was a long time ago and wasn't that bad, but it's worse what is happening now. I don't hold grudges. Unfortunately, this blacklist had to be made so everyone can stay safe.

I won't comment much on the sexual harassment allegations just yet, but that'll be at the end explaining it further, and what happened back then, wasn't a whole lot to talk about here because it was so long ago, and hearsay, that it'll be really hard and impossible to prove most likely, but the cyberstalking alone is pretty predatory. Stalking is really dangerous, whether it's online or not. There will be a hearsay and speculation section talking about the alleged bullying he is mentioning, and how I felt about him back then and now. Some of it is also alleged... So it's a complicated situation all around. I don't know where this guy has been. If he has been to jail, or if he is on alcohol or drugs. But he does give me a vibe that isn't in their right mind. Still, doesn't make this whole thing right. This does concern me a little, where a while back I did read that he was a hedonist on his profile, so if that's true, then that would explain a lot. I don't want to hang around anyone who does substances. It's just really sad to see, and I can't deal with being around that anymore, I'm sorry.

I looked more into it, and yeah. Goodness gracious. I mean, be promiscuous if you want y'all, but be wise about it.

I won't say much more than this, but I don't know how to feel about hedonism. I haven't heard much about it, and when I saw his profile months back, I thought that was weird. I believe in spiritualism, and that if there's no pain, then no gain, honestly, but to each their own. I think as long as people aren't going too far, then I guess it's fine, but personally I don't think that's for me.

Alfirune\Goldarwintea\Aacicodts\Zonane Or whatever he wants to call himself

Here are the four points of stalking from the research I've done, and that I've seen him do with the evidence I have. Fixated, obsessive, unwanted, repeated, that he continues to do over and over again. This is really unhealthy and not only can it ruin him, but also hurt those around him. All my friends and family know about this, by the way, and they're worried about me. I'm a survivor of stalking in this case, verbal and emotional abuse. It stressed my friends and family out and annoyed my fans. This does more harm than good, and sadly, I don't think he'll ever realize that. Not much more to write, this should be finished by the end of next week. Just a few more screenshots and then I'll clean up the writing, and that's it. The DeviantArt original journal rewrite is basically this. I have full freedom to write what I want to write, and I can't be censored. Not much more to say that's already been said. I just wanted to say I appreciate those being patient with me through this whole ordeal, and I'm so glad I won't have to talk about it anymore soon.

I don't know what I was even thinking back then, but I was really young. Being stalked like this, and for quite a long is insane. Maybe I should have said something, but I didn't like the vibe I was getting, and it doesn't make it right for him to stalk and harass me. He tried to intimidate me and silence me quite a lot, saying my journal was fictional, when it's sadly not. Also, he said I could fill a whole library with what I wrote about him, and I'm sorry that's hilarious.

I can't fill a whole library, or even a book. The screenshots alone would be maybe ten pages long, so no, not even a book. I think I need 40 more pages to be even a tiny book, not a novel, though, it would be like 200 at least. I have nowhere near that much. Note; I wrote this when I didn’t think I had much, but now with everytthing that came out, there’s a lot. There's really not much to go on other than his racial bias, harassment, stalking, and sexism, and I also say that because two black queer women being targeted by a queer white man is strange.

He made seven accounts also on Instagram right when I called him out on there a few months back. I blocked ten in total. I have all the screenshots before he deletes anything, as usual. At the time, those weren't there at first, since I blocked him before, so I knew those had to be made fairly recently. He says he isn't a stalker, yet he does stuff like this. That's stalker behavior. I don't have proof of how many more he has, but that alone is quite a bit. A good friend of mine made a joke that he probably makes five accounts each day before breakfast. Yeah, that sounds about right.

I don't think he is the only hater... He is for sure a hater though. I think it's normal to have haters, but he could have just blocked people and just left it at that, but was odd about it. Nothing he does adds up. I think it's guilt. He feels bad about his broken friendships so he feels that he needs to find a way to "fix" it. Even if it is by force. It's just unhealthy. It's never okay to do this. I know that he is full of himself because I now know the other side. None of this needed to happen.

Back when I cut him out I did feel a bit bad back then, but I moved on after a while since it's not like we were close or anything like that. We never met in person, we never had a call, or even spent time together. Some people just aren't compatible and I can't stand him. I've had to take a step back so many times, and I think that's part of the reason why it took so long to write this report. I hate what he has been doing and the way he has been acting, and I'm not gonna sugar coat it any longer, I'll just tell it like it is. He is awful. Having mental health issues is no excuse to make people feel afraid and uncomfortable online. People have told me that they felt uncomfortable at first and sad for him, but now they're just worn out hearing about it, and why I have to finish this report.

It's not really ironic here. I think he should have expected to be called out eventually. I'm thinking it's arrogance here. He thought no one would notice his stalking... It's hypocrisy on his end. Once again, he is getting me mixed up with someone else, and I wonder if this guy is on drugs at this point. His account is locked, and this shows up after I call him out. Let's see it was on April 16th, 2025. To be fair, my video had to show up in search, but still, he didn't need to make seven accounts. He already had three, so that's ten in total.

It doesn't matter whether he is talking about me or not. He is still targeting people, and the whole page was just off-putting. The way he replies is just sus. It seems like he has nothing better to do than just harass people, call people names, and send death threats. Such a needless waste of human life...

Why not just call me Azure? Clearly this isn't just about me obviously. But I realize he is being a wise guy here. That didn't stop him before. It's for sure a callout here, which no one cares; it's what others have told me they're worn out. All it does is give me the evidence I needed, that's all. And yeah, I know I'm quite slow because of my learning disability. I'm a disabled artist so this whole thing is not looking good for him and he sounds ableist right here. I guess another red flag to add to my blacklist here. As if the stalking wasn't bad enough, I guess there's more.

Also, I don't know what to believe anymore. He is the only one with that username Goldarwintea Rozacorushio and there was another one that started with an R, that was really similar. Oh, it's called Rocruzhiyo. Which is different, but sounds a bit similar. So far that I've seen, and he has made the spelling weird to make more cyberstalker accounts, and with him deflecting, I just don't believe anything he says at this point, nothing makes sense.

This sounds like implied death threats... I was expecting this, I'm not surprised. Wishing the worst for people isn't right. Karma is a very real thing. After I've seen it I could feel this wasn't right, and here's my answer. I only wanted this person to stop. He literally made a stalker account to start stuff with people and harass people. He says he isn't a stalker and yet, it's worse than I thought. I guess being envious is one hell of a drug huh? I can relate, and I'm glad I'm not like this anymore. Also, I'm glad I never got to this point. I was bitter in the past, but I never wanted to stalk anyone.

Honestly, when I'm blocked by someone, I respect that boundary. He blocked me on his main account first, and then that weird Zonane stalker account of his. I feel bad for some people who actually have that name because it takes away from people who need usernames. That's why this stuff should be illegal. It's not fair to everyone else.

This is why this guy is racist... Somehow, I'm magically supposed to know every black friend that he is friends with? Wtf is this? Look at how he lumps me and her together constantly. He gets me and her mixed up. I talked to her a little bit, and her personality is very different from mine, so this whole thing makes me uncomfortable. I feel that she's handled this better than I did. And omg, she's not even friends with him anymore, man, get a life. She's not friends with him anymore, and yet here he is doing this shit because I called him out, when he was stalking her like a creep. Also, please get help because he is saying things like "Leave me alone." That's my line. When he is stalking people? This is something called the DARVO method, and it's pretty gross.

What he is doing isn't good. Cyberstalking is a crime that can result in up to five years or life in prison. Sounds crazy, right? Well, if it gets severe enough and the offender sends death threats, and the victim dies, then yeah, they can get life. I looked it up. Also, he says things like, "Your experience may be different." I have friends I trusted for years. He wasn't my friend. I can not look fondly on the memories I have now at all with this person. He went way too far. He is acting like he is the only one with a bad experience when I think he needs to work on his social skills with people. Obviously, mine isn't the best either, but I know how to introduce myself, and respect boundaries.

And this is why he was blacklisted. The fact that he is using his mental health issues to be this shitty is just not right. He continues to use the DARVO method to gaslight, and tries to turn things around in his favor and say things like "Leave me alone." No, he needs to leave me alone. Once again, that's my line. He's blacklisted. When I blacklist someone, I want that person to leave me alone. Does he not know what blacklisted means?

I made that very clear. This person can't be this ignorant. I blacklisted him because he kept stalking people. Months would go by when I was investigating him, and he continued to write things about this woman in public, which is very unhealthy, and how often it would happen. Bluesky doesn't have an algorithm, so all kinds of people can see what he is saying. He looks insane to normal people who don't know what the hell is going on. It's so embarrassing, and the fact that he wouldn't stop is why I sadly had to write him up. It's like yelling on the street in public, and everyone can see what he is saying. That is what he is doing.

He made two accounts to try and mess with me here. And it's kinda hilarious to me. But, it's not really something to joke about since it's clear cyberstalking here, which is serious, but it's so absurd at the same time. I still have a hard time believing that this actually happened, but I need to learn to accept it, and also be more careful with who I speak to online. The red one is the one I'm blocked on, and the yellow one was his attempt to intimidate me into speaking to him. It's just strange and it's gross all around, and I hope he will stop. It's like he is playing cat and mouse. Well, I'm not interested in playing these childish games.

He says that me and her are a red flag when he's a whole alarm going off. Making stalker accounts like it's his job. And then he wants an apology? Nah, those are empty words because it would be one thing if, again, he messaged me privately, then yeah, I would have apologized for ghosting him even though he made me uncomfortable, but now I'm disturbed by just the very mention of his name. Nothing can make up for this, man. He must be out of his damn mind. What he is doing is dangerous, and why I wrote him up.

It looks like he has been doing this for years, and seeing how he deleted stuff in the past on Bluesky, I'm sure he deleted his stuff on Twitter too. Which, I mean, it's fine to delete stuff, but he closed two of his stalker accounts on Bluesky after I called him out on DeviantArt.

Also, adding a Christmas card at the end was just condescending and mean. Contacting me this way was just uncalled for. But he continues to do this with his clown shoes on I guess. I hope he doesn't forget his clown shoes at the door since he loves clowning around so much. Especially, at the time, Christmas was just around the corner. He also keeps talking about his lost family members, when he isn't the only one grieving, man. My late grandmother passed away back in August last year. Just months after he started bothering me. I can understand grieving, but he shouldn't take it out on other people. Everyone is hurting, not just him. To see someone not get better after ten years is just sad. The fact that he deleted this and then also mass reported my DeviantArt journal says a whole lot. He was just trying to cover his tracks, and he is only sorry he got caught.

How can anyone think this is okay? When I saw this, I started screenshotting because I couldn't believe it was someone from so long ago, especially that I haven't spoken to them in over a decade. But when I was blocked on his main account, I was sure it was him. The painting is mine, which I made to vent about this whole thing earlier this year. I wanted to paint how I felt at the time. It's no longer as heavy. I'm glad that people will finally hear my side of the story in my own words without censorship.

Okay, if that actually happened, that's really shitty to do to someone. But, still doesn't make it right to stalk and harass people, though. I don't like the sexist remarks he often makes either. I wouldn't want to talk to someone who calls me sexist slurs. In this context, it is sexist. With that being said, I don't see why anyone would put someone's mental health on blast like that. That bothers me a lot.

Again, all of this should have been talked about in direct messages and not in the public field. Sadly, social media is not the best place to vent. There's a lot of missing communication in text. A call or something would have been best in this messy situation. I have nothing to do with the Tuffmallow group, and it sucks that I was lumped in together with someone that I never even knew about until Decemberish last year, when I looked more into it. The art community is small, but also very large at the same time.

Alfirune's subtle racism and sexism

This bothers me a whole lot. He is a white man from another country, and I noticed how often he uses white people in these GIFs. I mean, it's human nature to gravitate to his own race, but it's just weird how often he uses these gifs in an unsettling way. It creeps me out a lot. For sure, don't get a good vibe from just this alone. I miss my ex-friends sometimes, and their company, but it would be unhealthy to dwell on it. The past is the past. It's fine that he wants to be around honest people, and I can understand it hurts to get cut off, and I can relate, but the lengths and the way he went about this is very wrong. It wasn't honest, it was forced, and it only made everyone uncomfortable. It's never okay to stalk someone for any reason at all.

Also, I saw him talk about world history and it seems like once again, he doesn't know what that means. If he did, he wouldn't be targeting me or JMB. Regardless of color. It doesn't matter if he has black friends or not. I've seen racist people have black friends. Humans are complex, and it isn’t always black and white, no pun intended there. That's just what they do. I had racist family members, and it isn't just white. I mentioned LTG earlier, but he is a black man that is racist towards other black people, but I'll call it out when I see it.

Ugh... That doesn't mean anything. Once again, just because he has friends of color, doesn't mean he isn't racist. Back in the slavery days, and even now racist people date outside of their race, it doesn't matter. Also, the fact that he is getting defensive here proves my point. He is racist. I don't know how JMB feels about him, but yeah, I hate him. I hate racist white men like him... That stalks and harasses me and acts like they own me. The fact that he continues to do this, is why I reported it. Did he tell his black friends about what he has done? I doubt it.

Who is making up a facade of rainbow of lies now, hmmm? A chronic liar, and using a black woman here, he should be ashamed of himself. He doesn't know what it's like and clearly is ignorant. I'm glad I don't know white people that are like this, Jesus... I hate his entitlement and how he acts, I never known any ex-friend that stalked me to the ends of earth online like this. clearly an unhealthy obessesion....

And somehow he thinks what he is doing is right? Harassing me, and JMB. Trying to affect people's businesses and mental state is disgusting. He is so clouded by his envy, it's taken over his better judgement. I know that racism exists everywhere, I did mention that. I'm talking about systematic racism here, which is very different from the racism he is experiencing and or/talking about. Also, I'm an American it's very bad here, and with ICE and everything, it's just not good, but I don't expect someone so bitter to understand that, especially someone that has ill will towards me. I won't say much, but like I said, he is blacklisted. I can understand English isn't his first language and I find that cool how he knows more than one, but at the same time, it's like what I'm saying goes one out the ear and one out the other, so there's no point in explaining to him. He is blocked and blacklisted, and I put it on a public blacklist since this would go on for months. It was sick to see. I hate him because just how unsafe I would feel just when I read the stuff he writes. It's heinous. No self- respecting person would want to be friends with someone like this.

This is why I won't bother talking to him directly. There's just no point. I had to write him up, and what does he do? He further stalks, proving my point. That's not creepy at all (Sarcasm). Also, he is the one with zero self control. He said bad things, and not just bad things, but everything bad should happen to me. He really is evil, but I already knew that. He is just sitting there letting it fester, when it's clear people wouldn't want to be friends with someone like this. I got scars from being abused by people like this, and said things like, "Oh, the perfect victim."

That's nice. He really is dumb... Sometimes I wonder if he has two personalities or something. Oh, and I remember his zodiac sign, he is a pisces and they have two sides. He talks about two faces when I feel that I can say that about him with all his fake accounts and how he acts all cute on his main, that's ironic. I don't think all pisces are bad, it's just something I've noticed. It seems like he is being dumb on purpose though, with the clownery and all...

He is using everything to get a reaction out of me... Victim blaming mentality. Goodness gracious, man.

I gotta admit I find this pretty funny here.

The things black women go through just for being black I've noticed that with him saying the same things to me, I'll rewrite what I said from last time. Black women are expected to act a certain way, and what he is saying here bothers me a whole lot. Having a spine isn't about getting into dumb arguments like this. I protected my energy, and so did the people who were targeted. He doesn't know these people's lives and it's vindictive and selfish what he continues to do. He was being verbally abusive; he is an abuser. Twitter, and now Bluesky, feels tense because of toxicity like this flowing into it. And he did come from Twitter, I have proof that this was indeed planned.

All this does is make him look like an envious hater who has too much time on his hands. He is trying to snuff out and tear down what little I have, and seems like he is trying to do that to JMB as well. It feels racially motivated because I did not know who JMB was until this whole thing, but I'm glad more people are aware of what he has been doing. It takes a lot of bravery to come forward with especially personal details about my past. It's not easy to do, but it is much needed.

However, he continues to make these blank accounts to just start stuff with people. It's predatory. It's criminal behavior. The more I look into this, the more I realize how miserable this person is. He wants everyone to feel as miserable as he is. I'm so grateful for the support system I have, and that I don't have people like this in my life anymore. Once again, this shows how bossy, controlling, insecure, and manipulative narcissist he is.

Also, he keeps using the words delulu or delusional, deranged, coward, bitch, and two two-faced snakes, when he doesn't know what those words mean very well. Either that, or again, coming off as a narcissist, who needs professional help. Once again, having poor mental health is no excuse to be this toxic.

Not much to say here. I don't know much about the context of what he is talking about here, but you can't copyright poses or simple stuff. So if that's all it is, then that's petty. The more I read into this, the more it feels like it's really stupid, but it's probably a bigger issue that I'm not seeing, at least in this area. Regardless, people should give credit when it's due, and I can agree on that. I just woke up to just seeing something like this, and I was like wtf. I thought it was some alt-right troll and I was close. But it's far worse than just a troll. I have a feeling his morals don't really match up with mine because for him to just go and think it was okay to message someone this after not speaking to them for ten years is wild to me. It doesn't make sense how I'm somehow supposed to be involved with the Tuffmallow community when nah. Doesn't make any sense. This has happened to me before when I was really young in the past where someone lumped me together because of my gender and race. It hurts, and I could tell this wasn't right and why I decided to blacklist him months ago. The black community deals with enough already. We don't need this.

The reason why this bothers me so much is that he never reintroduced himself. How was I supposed to know who he even was after all these years? The number of times he said bitch, and coward is staggering. He says that when he hides behind his fake accounts, and then asks me if I was friends with one of his ex-friends? That's not only a creepy way of reconnection, but also feels parasocial. We're strangers at this point; I don't know him. I didn't know what he was talking about until I saw who he was stalking, and I didn't even know these people even existed until what he did on Bluesky. This is unbelievable to me. I don't know what happened between y'all, but right now, he's the cyberbully in this situation. I would want to be better than the people who bullied me. This is my frame of reference, but all he has is hearsay; he doesn't have any evidence. And even still, it was so long ago. I don't think it's worth embarrassing oneself in the public field just to get back at someone. That's such a waste of time. This isn't a way to live.

This is why I refuse to speak to him, and it feels like it's done by design since I'm already blocked on his main account, which is why I blocked him back and continue to block each fake account I see that he makes. By law, I can't contact him, and I feel that he did that on purpose to get me in legal trouble. That's why I'm calling him sexist, since it seems like he really hates women, and acting like he is the victim, when he did this, His friends had to know what he did. Marginalized groups deal with enough, and I feel that him, of all people, should be aware of that fact.

Another thing that bothered me a lot was being blocked on his main account here, and then what he did weeks later on Thanksgiving Day, of all days. I was with my family at the time. I think this may be around the time I stopped talking to him, or close, I'm not sure. It was so long ago. But at this point, it's going way too far, and something like this shouldn't happen. Cyberstalking shouldn't be more normalized than it is. The fact that with his account not being even two days old at the time, the first thing is that he blocks me, and then blocks her way later after an argument. Like, somehow, I'm supposed to know this woman? When again, I don't. Relationships like this are unhealthy and toxic and aren't worth pursuing. And it's sad that he held on to these for so long. Again, life is way too short. He has way too much time on his hands. Many artists use social media to make money. Also, I would add that after I said this, he said I was greedy, when I barely can get by. If I didn’t need money, I wouldn’t want it, sadly I need it to get by. It’s not about greed, it’s about having a better overall life, but I don’t expect someone like him to understand that. The amount of followers doesn't equal the amount of money they make because most people aren't able to afford to buy artwork; it's a luxury. The more people understand this, the better. I don't care about the number of followers I have. It doesn't matter in the long run. I couldn't stop thinking of the Joker back when I first saw this. He really is a clown. This is coming from someone that actually doesn't have an issue with clowns, but this clownery is taking it too far. Thinking about this logically actually helps with this whole situation, and I can now stay calmer. He feels like he has been wronged by people, so to start over fresh, he wanted to get back at me and his other ex-friends. That's awful and hasn't helped him at all. If this is about revenge, then, more reason for me to write this up. This blacklist will stay up. The more evidence I look through that I have saved, the more I can't believe he did this. Even back then, I thought he was creepy, but not this bad. But I guess I was onto something cutting him out because for him to do this, and go to such lengths after a decade, is not only terrifying, but interesting to say the least.

Who I am friends with isn't any of his concern, and it was weird that I was recently put on a feed list even though I blocked him. He just keeps making accounts to harass me. I can understand he may be psychotic or something, but still, this isn't right. I haven't spoken to him in over a decade, and I've been very active in the N+C fandom since that was all going on.

This is why I'm finishing up my report and closing this chapter. What a mess. I honestly laughed a bit when I saw that. I also saw the other girl he is stalking on that feed list to track her posts and mine. That's pretty gross. What a creepy guy. But hey, it's the year of the snake, so there's that. He used this insult so much that I don't take it seriously. Two-faced snake has more than one meaning. Life and rebirth are one of them. I love snakes, they're pretty cool animals, and it sucks how misunderstood they are and are used as an insult. Anyway, this whole reconnection was insecure. No good. The more he does stuff like this, the more I'm like, nah, I don't want to talk to that guy.

Speculation and hearsay

Red flags... That title is very hypocritical, now that I think of it. There's more than six flags when it comes to him. A stalker making moderation lists called red flags and years of misery. That's rich. I'm honestly starting to wonder if this is why he got cut off by his ex-friends that didn't bother to fix anything. There's nothing to fix in abusive toxic relationships like this and he has shown how toxic he is. He will get banned from Bluesky if he continues to abuse it. If people like this continue to harass people, they will be left with nothing.

Also, this is why I called him a chronic liar besides him assuming I was friends with someone and after the so-called years of misery, when again, I haven't spoken to him in ten years. He acts like a victim here, when he started this whole mess on Bluesky. None of this needed to be in the public field and the only reason why reported it, was because he would not stop. This guy is delusional. All he does is project and lie. People aren't entitled to anyone's time and personal space... Friendship happens naturally and can not ever be forced, it just doesn't work that way.

He says I don't have any self control, yet here he is stalking, and harassing me. That's predatory and abusive. Quite obsessive and dangerous too. It's quite creepy how obsessed he is over not only me, but Alwaysjmb as well. That is harmful.

He shouldn't make sexual harassment jokes, and joke about touching people without their consent, which is what he told me that he touched someone's ass without their consent, laughed, and ran... He said he was just playing around, but I don't know because it was just off-putting. He told me that the guy was a bit uncomfortable, but was okay? Eh.

I didn't know how I should feel about that when he told me that after I told him about my sexual harassment I experienced... He was just creepy and weird back then, and still is, but worse now. Or maybe he has always been this way, I don't know. Honestly, it was so long ago that I'm not really focused on that, it's more so the stalking and harassment now, but remembering how he was, I guess I'm not that surprised. It's no wonder I ghosted this guy. What kind of gay white man stalks two unrelated black women? It just doesn't sit right with me. And he just won't stop, and says he won't because I won't stop talking about him, when he was already doing it which is laughable in a way. I'm only talking about it now because it's important to talk about. I was being stalked and harassed, he didn't just ask a question, it was in a threatening way. Saying things like, "There's no use trying to hide it." Like lol, wtf.

This is really hard to prove, but a lot of this is hearsay between him and Alwaysjmb as well, so I don't know how much of what he saying is true either because he doesn't have receipts, it's just him ranting, but he assumed I was friends with her, which is a lie. So it makes it harder for me to believe anything he says. Because again the first thing he did when he joined Bluesky was block me on his main account, but then weeks later at me in public about some mess that should have stayed private because of the very mature nature of it all. It's uncomfortable and gross, and I hate talking about it. I understand some people feel affection through touch, (This is what a friend told me that some people have mental health conditions and don't do that to be creepy) but he should learn how to respect other's boundaries, that's a lack of empathy and compassion for other people. After the myriad of times he was bossy, and controlling, and I can see a narcissist as well, I'm not surprised. He only thinks about himself. He never thought about myself and my privacy, and he said he doesn't respect me, when yeah, I can clearly see that. Occam's razor is a good way to help with these cases though. "The simplest explanation, most likely is."

With that being said, the reason why I deleted a lot of the stuff on Toyhouse I had was that I was working on my blacklist so me, my community and my friends can stay safe because it wasn't normal what was happening. But, once again given the nature of stalking I got quite heated which is normal, but with the way toyhouse is I had to keep my blacklist professional, so it wasn't about being a "nice girl". It's literally their rules, and I gotta follow it or my blacklist will get deleted... I don't think he understands what he is doing is wrong. There's no use talking to him, so I'm not gonna bother.

The end of this cyberstalking chapter

Note; This video was made before I knew the other side, now that I know what's going on with the Tuffmallow community, I can finally put this to a close. It's a pretty chill community overall. I haven't seen anything wrong with it personally, and I hope things get better for them overall. Man... I wish he would stop. I don't care what he says about me. It's kinda funny to me at this point. It's amusing actually. I'm no saint, but I know who I am. I always try to do better, and it's just back and forth at this point, this is the last time I'm checking clearsky. He doesn't know me like that, but all I know is what I saw him do online which isn't good at all. I'm not gonna talk to some guy that reminds me of my abusive ex-boyfriend, they're so similar. Well, people saw what he said so, they believed me and I see he has been added on lists now which I take with a grain of salt, but I don't know why he can't just move on. A blacklist is a boundary and yes there's some serious allegations here on both sides, but it's gone too far, and for far too long. I'm done. I don't like how he has this parasocial relationship with me, and I want nothing to do with people that act like this. Alfirune being sexist again here... Eh, I'm used to being called a bitch at this point, I don't care, but, this made my investigation really easy. He continues to do this, but he has no receipts of the so-called bullying. It's all projection because what he says is not adding up at all. I had a feeling he would follow me to my website, and he took the bait. He really is predatory.... All this did was give me what I needed, as well as some answers. I have all the evidence I need. Much obliged. I called him a chronic liar because of all of the nonsense he was talking about on Bluesky for the longest. Constantly using the word "Coward" to the point, I don't even care. Empty threats and trash talk. He is saying he is tired of my bullshit, when he won't stop making those gutter trash accounts, like I'm just supposed to ignore that, and endure that at the same time is not only dangerous, but abusive. I won't be taking any of that. I don't like him, I don't like how he is acting, but I'm doing my best to stay professional and it isn't easy to do. Cussing him out won't help anyone. Avoidance isn't always cowardice. All he is just gonna do is insult me like he always does. He gets me mixed up with JMB, like I'm the same person, it's dehumanizing. I'm not fearful of him, but his actions do scare me. How many accounts would he make like it's his job or hobby, like does he not draw anymore? He can't blame me or Alwaysjmb for this. He is a grown ass man, 34 years old. I remembered how old he is because I stopped talking to him when I was 23, he was 24.

I ain't no coward just because I won't tolerate his emotional and verbal abuse. Actually, I'm quite disgusted. He did this shortly after I said on Bluesky that I was more active on my website. I know he had to be on my website since it's linked to my Toyhouse and then he found my Toyhouse. It's within Toyhouse's rules to add blacklists there. I did nothing wrong trying to protect my boundaries which he isn't helping with the allegations against him. Also, the fact that he is constantly lumping me with Alwaysjmb is unfair because it is gross, racist, and sexist to do. It is dehumanizing.

It's like he can't tell us apart from each other, which doesn't make any sense at all to me. I don't know him, I haven't spoken to him in years, that is some creepy parasocial type of shit. He is tripping. God only knows who else he did this to since he clearly has a history of doing this. I hope the others don't join Bluesky anytime soon, and why I'm informing people about this. I'm never deleting this report. He is blacklisted for good. Trolling, stalking, and harassment is against many website's TOS. I'm not gonna get suspended over some dumb tirade because of arguing with him. Getting lectured from DeviantArt was enough for me. I have a headache from just reading this stuff, but it's just guilt tripping too. "This big joke of a throne" He is speaking nonsense as usual so I don't pay him any attention anymore. But this is my house. My home away from home. My website, and my rules that don't go against Toyhouse or Neocities, it's within both of their TOS.

Unlike DeviantArt which is more like a school or a work place. Toyhouse and Neocities is my home. And he can't do anything about it so he harassed me on Bluesky yet again, so pathetic and sad. I'm never ever speaking to him again, he is abusive. I needed this place because Bluesky was a mess, but I did link my website to Bluesky to slowly change how I feel about it.

This is a harsh reality of life, a video clip of Princess Mononoke, but it's so true. Life is hard, but I still find reasons to keep on living.

"These days, there are angry ghosts all around us. Dead from wars, sickness, starvation, and nobody cares. So you say you're under a curse. So what. So's the whole damn world."

With that being said, I hate how he would bring his dead family members into this when everyone is suffering. It is also dishonorable to them too. My late father would turn over in his grave if I was bringing his death into something like this. That would be disrespectful. Did he not think that people have relatives that died as well? I lost my grandmother last year, and yet I don't make excuses to harass an ex-friend just because I had a falling out with them. This won't fix anything, all it did was cause more pain.

From now on, if it's severe enough I'll be publicly blacklisting people so my community can stay safe and that my boundaries are clear. I will not tolerate this toxic behavior in the future. This was never okay. It doesn't matter what happened in the past because it's irrelevant to what is happening right now. It goes out of the scope, and it's more complex than, "Oh, this woman bullied me." It's much more than that. With that said, it still doesn't make it right to try and mess with people online to get back at them in the public field. This does more harm than good, and all it does is cause more pain that didn't need to happen.

Alfirune, if he is reading this, I'll never speak to him again. It doesn't matter how many accounts he makes; the result will be the same. He was the one who blocked me first on a yaoi forum years back, from what I remember, and then he blocked me on Bluesky, and then made not just one account, but two to stalk me and Alwaysjmb... It's not only creepy, but it's selfish not to just message people privately about this mess. But no, he would rather start a public drama. Like I said in my original DA journal, he is getting blacklisted. I never go back on my word on important things such as these.

As if people of color don't deal with enough, and with him being white, I feel like he won't understand that. Since he so into his racial bias against black people. He thought I was friends with Alwaysjmb, but I am not. And I'm not in her Tuffmallow community. Looking at the game she's working on, and at least she has something she's been trying to do with her life, and that's inspiring to me. That is more than I can say for him, who would rather harass people online than make something of oneself.

This is not it, and will be documented so no one else will get hurt because this seems like he has been doing this for a VERY long time. It's quite disturbing how many social media platforms he stalked me on. Did he ever think that maybe I didn't want this on my art and writing account, which is what Bluesky is for me? I went there to have fun, that's it. His trolling has no bounds, and this will be made further public knowledge.

Also, if his friends are enabling his bad behavior, then they're just as bad as he is. Social media is where I go to relax, post art, and chat with people. It is not a place to cause chaos... He had to know deep down this wasn't right. No excuse. He is almost in your mid-30s; he should know better. Sometimes I wonder if he is even a real person because the way he acts is childish and, quite frankly, disturbing at times for someone his age. His art has potential, and I feel like he could be a decent person if he stopped stalking and harassing people.

If only he wouldn't deflect and accuse people of having a victim complex, when I feel like he is projecting. He thought of himself as a victim when he started this mess. He is the one who made a myriad of accounts to stalk people. I'm not the one who started this mess. Again, I haven't spoken to him in ten years. This situation is unhealthy, and I will be putting it to a close and won't be commenting on it anymore once July is over. I'm done. That is crazy to try to drag me into something I have no business in.

This is heartbreaking, and I hope if not for people's boundaries for his own self-respect and time. He was wasting his time when he could be doing something for himself. He wasted so much time on people who don't even want to be friends with him. I'm sure he has some friends that enjoy his company and I hope someday he can realize that. I can only hope his current relationships are healthy and aren’t anything like when I was friends with him, and I hope eventually he learns from this, only time will tell.

Epilogue

He gives me Envy vibes. He thrives on negativity... I never wished him death threats or any of the sort. I do have some self control because I never wished him any ill will like he did me and Alwaysjmb. This is going too far, and this document will remain open to the public as a general PSA about cyberstalking and envy. I'm not gonna sink to his level. Imma be better, and learn from this situation.

Envy: Resentment of others' possessions or qualities, often accompanied by jealousy. There's some clear envy here. He obviously isn't happy and is trying to bring me down on Bluesky. This was planned and he only seems to do this on Bluesky, but it is backfiring, with the amount of evidence I have, he is done. He didn't just ask no question, it was rude, in public, and just dumb thing to do. I did answer his question by the way, just not directly. I’m not friends with Alwaysjmb, and I left him alone because I thought he was creepy, bossy, and controlling. That wasn’t a healthy friendship. Cultural difference maybe, but that's not how I do things, and it isn't how my friends do things. Being an asshole isn't honest. He is using honesty as an excuse to be an asshole.

He followed me all the way to my website and the amount of stalking that he does feels very violating. He isn't helping the sexual harassment allegations. He says he isn't a predator, when he does predator things. I'm not talking to any predators. That would be foolish, especially with the large amount of evidence I have. This isn't just drama anymore or tea or whatever y'all want to call it. This is serious.

Also, he seems to take my page way too literal. I'm pretty profiction as long as it isn't hurting anyone, and I can see he won't ever understand that, because he comes off as someone that would censor my work. I'm not surprised, because when it comes to antis they often harass people, and he fits the bill.

This is just my guess from what I've seen him say, but the black heart has nothing to do with corruption, at least when I use it, everyone uses it for different things, so I can't speak for everyone, but it has different meanings. It has to do with the black lives matter movement besides dark fantasy, and he would know this if he actually cared about blacks and didn't just see us as monoliths.

If he was media literate, and paid attention, he would know this, and yet somehow I'm slow. Well, slow and steady wins the race right? Being disabled isn't a crime, and I feel that I used that to my advantage because of my slow pace and was able to catch on to a lot of things that he was doing. If I wasn't as patient as I was, I wouldn't have bothered.

I may not want to be friends with him, and more so because, nah. He made it awkward. There was no way for me to speak to him, it's just the way he had it set up. It felt like a trap and it's really sad how he felt like that was the only way to talk to me and Alwaysjmb. It hurts. He calls me a heartless bitch, when he doesn't know what he is talking about at all. He just sees my online posts, he doesn't see my day to day life.

I mean, I cried a few times, I must admit. Seeing someone just go to such lengths and be an abuser, makes me sad, I need a moment guys. I think I hate him because I see potential wasted, and it isn't just the discrimination I felt, but also felt like he was wasting his life. I'm so angry with him. I don't think I can keep writing about this too much longer. The reason why I spent so much time on it is I wanted it to be well fleshed out and properly explained. I tried to turn my emotions off, but I can't here, I'm sorry y'all.

I think what bothers me most is how he called me greedy... When I say someone is well off, I don't mean that they're rich, I mean that they just have enough to get by. I barely can get by, and also seeing someone say that and not only that, but the worst things to happen to me, when that's fine. I already been to hell and back, what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger at least. Maybe I should have worded that differently. But it's creepy that he followed me all the way to my website, when I made it clear that I hated this person... I wouldn't care about money if I didn't need it, my family is struggling. He shouldn't talk about things he knows nothing about.

I hate him mostly because of him harassing this woman that didn't want to be bothered, but he kept harassing her, and this is the main reason why I hate him. It was so bad, that when I tried to contact her, she thought I was him. Which, I guess I can kinda see? I didn't have any gender listed, and I'm working on how I come off to people when I just met them online. So I don't blame anyone for that, it happens. That being said, nothing he does adds up and why I decided to investigate...

But how could he know? He doesn't know me or my life, and honestly I don't know him like that, but I do know the bad vibes I felt, which were off. No one is entitled to people's time, no matter how much they like them. I don't understand why he won't get a life, but I'm not paying him anymore attention. I said how much I hated him in my Toyhouse and all the sudden I was being harassed yet again, he had to be following me, so I used that as bait, since that's what it seemed like he was trying to do to me. He has been following me it seems for the longest, I'll block all his accounts, and he'll just make another one to stalk me with, if that isn't predatory I don't know what is.

I don't know about the other woman's life, but I know some places are more expensive than others. I don't expect someone to understand that is not only thriving from the negativity, but continues to stalk and harass people. My safe space isn't for people like this, so he is right about that. I don't want people like that in my community.

Imma be strong though. "We walk over ankle bitters like this dude, we don't entertain them. It's only by pure chance some latch on, but you'll shake em off." As one of my good friends would put it. ;^3