Feels like getting suspended on Twitter is for the best... I don't really care much except for the mutuals/friends I made there, but that's about it. I mean, I loved the art, but that was extra. I joined the LADS fandom out of loneliness and boredom. As most of my friends were busy doing other things, mostly working and time zones are messy, so I wanted to try something different. Also, I did want to help out more, but it is what it is, if it's gone, it's gone, and it's best not to dwell on this too much.
I never really liked that website much after the changes. It's gotten worse since they added grok, and a bunch of other useless shit on there. It was painful being on there. Every day or every other day there was always something going on in the LADS fandom. Most of the drama seemed to either be about Sylus or Caleb, but mostly Caleb. So, the fact that a group of people can just mass report my account... I know it had to be ladstwt (I'm a Caleb main, he is a pretty controversial character regardless of censorship or not).
That being said, ladstwt really doesn't like xyztwt from what I was seeing. There's a huge divide in the LADS fandom. Westerners give me second hand embarassment as I'm an Amercian and I feel that I don't understand my own country, also being part native, I know this country is stolen... So there's a huge disconnect, and I'm also learning more about my native side of my family. This country... I hate saying this, but it is built on genocide. So much pain and suffering... It's so depressing and heart breaking. I hate it here, man. If I could move out the country I for sure would in a heartbeat, as I'm learning other languages, so it would be nice to travel. Once I get the chance, I'm out of here.
I do feel a bit sour towards the LADS fandom and how it treats artists. I understand not liking a character or whatever, but they go too far. I know not everyone in this fandom is this way, but it does make me feel iffy as I haven't even been playing the game for two months. I'm very new here. So the fact it's so toxic to newcomers is shocking. Even Genshin didn't give me this awful experience. I do have a strong dislike towards ladstwt and what I was seeing happening there especially with stalking which is never okay to do, ever.
I noticed I was already getting blocked by quite a few people, when I was just having fun. Like okay, fine, block me, that doesn't bother me, but mass reporting me and my mutuals accounts is hypocritcal since they're the ones that can't leave people the fuck alone... They're the ones that needs a time out. The AI mess has made it harder to enjoy being on Twitter... So frustarting, like touch grass, my guy... It was fictional shit, that was all. Why are they so pressed over pixel dick, tiddies, and ass, is beyond me. As much as I love Caleb, he isn't real. He is a drawing... He is Caleb Doodle Bob imfao...
Anyway, I literally had dark fantasy listed on my page for a reason so it's clear I'm profiction, why wouldn't I not be? I'm no puritan and nor will I ever will be. It's so hypocritcal how they're acting like they're holier than thou, when they're on a website filled to the brim with sex and violence... It doesn't make no damn sense. I'm not ashamed to admit how I feel about that whole situation.
It goes against what I was taught when learning and studying Miura's work. Exploring dark fiction helps me stand on my two feet and even healed me when I was going through a lot. I feel that I'm stronger because of it, and I wouldn't have gotten this far if these works were censored... So, that's why I'm so against censorship because I know these stories can save people, it saved my life.
I don't expect these people to understand, they don't know my life and I don't care if they don't understand they're not my people, and they're not welcome on my page. I never liked antis, mostly because they're often the ones that harass people, I rarely have seen proshippers bother anyone, so that's saying something as they mostly mind their own damn business. I don't have time for this nonsense... Those "proship dni" are frustrating and yet they interact with clear proship accounts whether they say they are or not, it's clear.
I don't like watering things down with just anti vs proship stuff, as there's a lot of nuance to fiction. Black and white thinking doesn't always work. I'm not a fan of these white-washed words as I've seen Chinese people call it that and I think they're right. I think nuance is the word I'm looking for.
I just needed to get that out of my chest as I saw so many antis playing LADS, which is hypocritical of them to do on so many levels. That is a freaky game in more ways than one. I mean, it's a good game, and being freaky isn't a bad thing. LOL, I'm a proud freak... These toxic westerners are so embarassing. I can understand there's a cultural difference and not liking something as I learned media litercy at a young age, so I'm able to enjoy fiction as it's not real. It's my wonderland. Wonderland doesn't make no damn sense lol. Trying to apply real life morals to a dark romance is not only foolish, but it can just take out all the fun out of a silly game. Just because I like horror, doesn't mean Imma murder someone, like what is this foolishness of man?
I think of LADS like a dollhouse and as a simmer, it reminds me of the Sims partly, just with a story, and Genshin like gameplay. The problem with these people is I think they take things way too literal and seriously. A friend of mine said that these people don't have imagination and it really does seem like they don't. They're no fun at all. I wouldn't want to dance around people like that so I avoid those people. Those aren't people I ever want as friends, they'll make me miserable and everyone else around them. No thanks. I've seen it happen way too often, never again...
On a lighter note, my plan is to update this place at least once a month, and as for my social media it won't be as often as I'm focusing more and more on my website for mostly professional reasons as I wasn't feeling very safe last year online. So, I prefer just posting professional things from now on. I'm very reserved and I prefer to keep it that way, I guess I'm not the typical American. I'm often mistaken for Canadian or European... I'm a Black Native (Creole/Cherokee) Nonbinary gal from America. My accent gives it away tbh...
I don't say y'all for no reason. But yeah, just wanted to write a little update as I can write more now with my laptop that I prefer for most of my work. I do have a desktop mostly for bigger projects that I plan on writing the specs about sometime next week, but yeah thank y'all for reading. I'll be working on a theme for my entire page as the rainbow/pastel theme is nice, but I'm working on a dark rose theme for the longest, most of my page will be black, gold, and red most likely as those are my colors I really love. <3.