8/7/2026 Website Update: Added a new journal entry. I will be cleaning up my journals here a bit, and reorganizing them. This website of mine needs a massive overall that I'll try to get done before the end of the year. Man, this year only has four months left, that is wild to me how fast this year is going. I feel that I didn't get to do much, but I'll try and make up for it. I'm just glad I'm still alive and kicking! :^D

7/19/2026 Personal: I'll be talking a bit about the situation with LADS soon as well as the boycott as I'm working on art for Valko. It sucks how misunderstood my words are. The character limit doesn't help, and I don't have money for premium, nor do I feel comfortable doing so even if I could. It's twitter so I don't know what I was expecting. Bluesky has this problem as well... Social media is such a mess as a whole. I never said that people had to drop Caleb's character if they were uncomfortable with his whole trope. I just said, don't like don't read which was the original proship and still is, but people have been twisitng the true meaning of it, and it's heartbreaking to see.

I do partly blame Infold for censoring his character in English, but seeing how they obviously grew up together in the same household for 20 years or something like that it was pretty obvious from the get go. And his whole big brother energy, too. I've read dark romance/gothic manga since I was a teenager so I guess I'm just used to reading stuff like that. But, honestly, if I am so uncomfortable with something I just leave it alone. I do not think something should be censored just because of my own discomfort.

I have PTSD. Dark fantasy is a coping mechanism is all I'll say for now without going into detail. I've been through hell and back. Some people just don't want to listen and that's why fandoms are a disease and why I just don't bother anymore. I post my art and leave.

Berserk was the best fandom I've ever been in, that had it's issues, but it was never so tense, and it has the darkest stuff under the sun in that manga. Just sorta done with fandoms as a whole and I don't just trust anyone that has proship/anti on their page as it's performative nonsense. Unless they show that their decent people. Actions speak louder than words. A bit of a vent here. Censorship is the cornerstone of fascism and as a antifa, I will never support that. Being black and queer so much of the media I enjoyed was hurt because of that. No thank you.

7/12/2026 Website update: This is a to do list. As social media is not really that fun to be on, mostly friends really to talk to that makes it worth it, besides that I've just been chilling and working on art. I'll be still working on a better theme for this website, but there's no rush as I'm still learning how to code. I'll do my best I can with my website and take my time. I'll try to update atl least once a week instead of everyt two weeks, but I can't promise anything as this is a side project I'm working on. I'm slowly getting better at it. Anyway, good day y'all! <3

7/1/2026 Website update: Finally added a doodle section that I'm working on. I may make it's complete own section just trying to see what works and what not. I didn't get to really do a lot of art the month of June as much as I wanted. I'm busy as usual. I don't think I'll make a strawpage ever as I already have a tumblr with anon turned off. People will just abuse that sadly, it's happened to me before. I rather just not. I don't care about what random people think of me. They don't know me or my life, so why should I care about that? With that said, I'm just glad I got a doodle page up as strawpage is nice to doodle in, but I wanted something for me self without drama or making another page. I have my own website, so might as well use it.

6/27/2026 Personal: I got my Twitter back, but at what cost. Wasn't gonna come back, but eh. I'm just using it to keep in touch at this point. I think I'm socially burnt out and just need to recharge. I want to keep posting art, but it's rough trying to fight the algoritim even more so with the AI issues. I'll take the time to reorganize my website and journals here. I'll be writing more about the LADS fandom as it's a huge mess, and even the eastern side can be pretty toxic, so I think it really doesn't matter which social media I use. They all pretty much look the same too. I miss forums man. The good old days. I'll be alright, just a vent. I wish y'all good luck, it is rough out there. Stay safe.

6/18/2026 Personal: I ended up deactivating my Twitter account which isn't a first. But that website is unbearable. It's racist, evil, and just no good all around. I can't in a good mindset to continue using it, this was what I was planning to do for the longest. I don't think I'll be using Twitter much if at all in the future. There's so many issues with it. The website is ugly, and the people on it are really mean. I have my own website, and I think I need to just keep using it. It's not easy to code, and write stuff in HTML is still something I'm learning, but it's better to express my self with full freedom without worrying about being censored. It feels good lol. x^D

6/15/2026 Personal: I'm just really fed up with what's going on with AI, and the abuse of it. It's concerning. It can't replace real people and it's foolish to think that it ever can. It's fucked up that people are losing their jobs and social media is falling apart because of it. I'm so tired...

6/4/2026 Website update: I think I'm slowly getting the hang of my website after it's been about a year since I started working on it. I'm slowly adding my artwork here, and I'll be working on a new layout for my website as well a record of things here. It'll be just how my website looked like in the past, and for artwork I'll still uploading WIPs here eventually. Man, do I love my website lol. <3

6/2/2026 Personal: I find it funny how hilariously bad Twitter's report system is. Oh, god forbid people speak out against harassment and stalking. I can't say I'm surprised that website has gone downhill for years. It was only a matter of time it would fall off a cliff for me, eh... I don't care much for that website, but I did have fun regardless. Gonna miss the cool art and my mutuals, but I'm needed elsewhere. On a lighter note, happy pride month y'all. I'm working on artwork, and I need to start posting here as a lot of online spaces are hostile towards artists, so having my own website has been delightful. It's nice having an online space to breathe.

5/27/2026 Personal: I got into LADS last month, and it started off pretty fun, but the fandom really reminds me of those crazy K-POP stans so I'm keeping my distance from it as a mutual of mine was being harassed, I'm so tired of seeing these things happening. It doesn't make any sense for people to trip over so much over fucking cartoons lol. I'm tired. I'll be working on my website more in Juneish. I'm out of LADS hell as that itch has been scratched. I still love the game, but it's good to be back into the Berserk fandom, lol my happy place! <3

4/27/2026 Website update: Moved my boundaries section to the notes section instead as I feel that it's common sense and I know the right people find my page, but I will keep it up as a vent and update my TOS accordingly to match up and let people know I'm not fast when taking commissions as well as deadlines and what to expect.